Sometimes I feel like screaming
Drama, 19 mins.
Synopsis:
Until their mother’s death, the two siblings, Luke and Maggie, were inseparable. As neither of them knows how to cope with their grief, a growing distance develops between them – until, following an argument, they find themselves in a special place.
- Project Team: Vanessa Rösgen and Christoph Manderscheid.
- Semester: Bachelor's Project, 7th semester, 2022
- Supervision: Prof. Alexander Herzog and Wolfram Gruß
Crew list
Director, Screenwriter and Producer: Vanessa Rösgen
Director of photography: Christoph Manderscheid
Production manager: Amanda Geier
Gaffers: Meta Jülicher, Nadine Habash, Sinan Kleb
Editor: Jakob Bauer
Music: Christoph Manderscheid
Sound: Paul Fleck
Costume designer: Paisano Pililao
Production designers: Juliane Oheimer,
Jennifer Nedlin, Noreen Erkardas
1st assistant camera: Johannes Tran
2nd assistant camera: Luca Meyer
Script continuity: Eline Weßkamp
Assistant production manager: Samuel Niccum,
Tobias Meßenzehl, Romy Sukiennik
Production coordination: Eline Weßkamp, Samuel Niccum,
Jana Münster
Sound mixer: Tobias Wolf, Christian Jeczmyk,
Tobias Frey, Tim Roggenberg
Best boy/girl: Meta Jülicher, Wiebke Erhard,
Aurelia Langhanke, Jana Münster, Tim Rogasch
Props: Jennifer Nedlin
Make-up: Meriem Bouda, Eline Weßkamp
Behind the scenes: Stefanie Barth
Director’s Commentary
I think we’ve all been there: someone passes away, we offer our ‘sincere condolences’, and then an awkward silence falls. When my mother passed away in the summer of 2019, I found myself in this situation time and again. Most relatives and friends were at a loss. People either resorted to clichés or avoided the subject as much as possible.
Even within my own family, there are still awkward or strange moments. We’ve never really found the perfect way to deal with it. As I delved deeper into the subject of grief over time, I realised that many people feel the same way as I do. Instead of talking, we often remain silent.
In films, death is often touched upon only briefly. But there is usually only a ‘before’ and a ‘long after’ – almost never a ‘during’ or a ‘shortly after’. Rarely is ‘grief’ truly portrayed as a central theme. It’s strange: death and grief eventually affect us all. And yet, the subject remains a taboo.
Premiered at the Max Ophüls Prize Film Festival
Festival Selections:
– FILMZ – Festival of German Cinema
